Meet Andora

A drawing representing Andy, done by artist Sleepy

Hi! I’m Andora and my pronouns are ze/they/she. Feel free to call me Andy!

I’m a writer, a winter person, and a mostly harmless panromantic asexual from Washington state.

When I’m not writing own-voices queer polyamorous romantasy, you can likely find me watching the Seattle Kraken or an obscure low budget movie with a crochet hook in hand, out on the mountain with skis on my feet, or hanging out in my community with a smile on my face as I try to spread good throughout the world.

I can’t tell you what color my hair is likely to be as that changes too frequently. But my skin is pale and my eyes are olive green.

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  • 8/24/2025 Melody Checks In

    A stunning black cat looks at the camera from in front of a storyboard

    Melody: Look at Talvi! He’s gorgeous! 🐈‍⬛

    Me: I agree completely. But know what else is gorgeous? That outline he’s posed in front of.

    Melody: Outline? Oh… That’s mine, isn’t it?

    Me: It is!

    Melody: Didn’t I already have an outline? Why did I need a new one?

    Me: You had an outline in Scrivener for a draft that sprinted into a dead end and a bunch of plot beats for various arcs in a virtual notebook, many of which were not hit when they should have been in your second draft. This is all of those beats and their needed progressions woven together in a scene-by-scene guide. Complete with Chapter Titles. All the way from ‘No One Is Happy’ to ::spoiler:: ‘Everyone Is Happy*’. *Everyone save some unlikable people who no one wants to be happy anyway.

    Melody: Okay… So this is better?

    Me: Uh-huh. Getting it all out where I could see it from one vantage point helped me make sure none of the arcs were ignored for too long, let alone dropped completely like they were in the last draft. And helped make sure I didn’t do the opposite either and spend too much time on certain arcs.

    Melody: How much did you change about me?

    Me: For your first half, not much. Although I did slash the start of an arc that took a lot of time to establish something I think I can get to plausibly simply by having the main character in it stop to think before triggering the arc. And I cut a few scenes that repeated things we’d already established. And added a few partial scenes to bring in certain arcs earlier. But the first half won’t have too many new words in it despite a scattering of scenes that will be original to this draft. 

    Melody: Alright. And the second half?

    Me: That leads with a chunk where you’re going to keep about half of what you had while getting fifty percent new scenes. And then the last third or so will be entirely new. And shouldn’t end with me saying there’s no point in getting all the way to The End even if I could do it gracefully because I need to rewrite so much of the middle.

    Melody: So was the last draft pointless?

    Me: Not at all! The exploring I did in it helped me see what you need to be. And, at least as importantly, what you don’t need to be. It was a necessary stage. If nothing else, it wasn’t until that draft that I realized how much I like Ohshi. And I’m happy to be able to say this book will have more nonbinary rep than the last one. Ohshi’s even ace, like me!

    Melody: Ohshi’s the wingless birdkin who helps Etsian with…. Um… Stuff that I will not spoil. Yesno?

    Me: Yep! Ze started as an antagonist’s henchman who didn’t appear until three quarters of the way through the first draft, but in the second draft ze demanded a bigger role. Ze’s still support cast, but ze’s integral to the plot now. And is in the very first scene. 🙂

    Melody: Sounds good. What else did you change?

    Me: I cut some of the things that seemed unrealistic or forced, toned back stuff that seemed too melodramatic, and came at the External Action Arc from a different perspective that allowed me to plan something I think I can write. And something that will fit in as an arc in a romance novel rather something that really should be the focus of any book it’s in with the romance arcs being secondary.

    Melody: Makes sense. I’m a romance, not a thriller.

    Me: Exactly. Oh! And I made the primary antagonist sane. Still not a good person. But sane now, and no longer over-the-top villainous.

    Melody: Good. I was hoping you’d fix that.

    Me: Yep! So I’ll be off to work on Act I revisions for the rest of the week. Toodles!

    Melody:  No! Wait!

    Me: What is it?

    Melody: How are you feeling? You really worried me last week.

    Me: Yeah, last weekend was rough. After I talked with you and Harmony, I took a few days completely off from writing. I didn’t even participate in any of the excerpt shares on social media that I like so much because I closed my work laptop Saturday and didn’t open it again until Thursday. I didn’t even open my virtual notebook until late on Wednesday.

    Melody: The break worked though? You’re better now?

    Me: Better is a relative term. I’m still clinically depressed. But the ideations have faded away and I’m feeling optimistic that last week was the low point of the summer.

    Melody: And you’ll take another break if you need it?

    Me: Absolutely! But I’m eager to tackle your next draft. And I read a fun book I’d like to review. And the next issue of Ethernotes is due out at the end of the week. So I have a lot to do!

    Melody: I’m glad your mental health has improved. Thank you for taking care of yourself!

    Me: Thank you and everyone who reached out for caring. Every message helped! 💖

    Melody: 💗💗💗

    Me: And now I will be off to work on Draft 3!

    Melody: Awesome! I look forward to my impending makeover!

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  • 8/16/2025 Harmony Checks In

    Harmony: Did you just post part of me for free?

    Me: Very observant, Harmony! I did! People can now read your first three chapters here!

    Harmony: Cool! But shouldn’t you have done that earlier?

    Me: Probably. But the important thing is I’ve done it NOW! Also, samples were already available at most of the places you’re for sale, so it’s not like everything was behind a paywall already.

    Harmony: Does this mean more people might read me?

    Me: We can hope. 🙂

    Harmony: That smile looks a little fragile, Andy. You okay?

    Me: Yeah, so… No? I have seasonal depression. Summer was a really bad time to release a book knowing how little attention a new indie release is going to get. Also, I’m sort of struggling with too many plots in Melody, so feeling incompetent. And hopeless. And I know people care, but it feels like they really don’t. Because Depression keeps telling me they don’t.

    Harmony: That sounds rough. Can I help?

    Me: Get yourself some reviews? Hell, let’s aim low. Get yourself ONE review. Anywhere.

    Harmony: I thought I had stars on Goodreads?

    Me: Stars are better than nothing, yet aren’t very helpful without a few words to explain where they came from. And only one reader has left stars…

    Harmony: You’ve mentioned you’re willing to GIVE copies to people willing to review me, yesno?

    Me: Yes. Hasn’t helped. Although I can’t really blame people for not wanting to do that. I’m reading something I got free for agreeing to review it and… Well, I wouldn’t still be reading if I’d paid for it. So… Yeah. That’s where we are there. I have some blogs to maybe reach out to, but that’s hard to do with Depression assuring me it’s not worth the time to email them, at least not when you factor in the time spent crying when they say no as Depression fully intends to have me doing.

    Melody: How about me? I know focusing on writing rather than promoting would be good for you!

    Me: Probably, yeah. Except I explored you into corners and don’t know which arcs to cut, so don’t know what to write. And that leads into the hopeless/pointless/doomed spiral…

    Melody: I’ve noticed you brainstorming something that doesn’t seem to be part of my series. Would working on that help?

    Me: That’s not planning novels. The ruminations you’re referring to are called Suicidal Ideations. They’re Depression’s children.

    Melody: Oh. Those sound bad.

    Me: They are.

    Melody: Well, you’re not allowed to die without finishing me. No one else can do that. And you have to write at least one more of us because Songs of Niaretya is a SERIES, not a duology.

    Me: Thanks. I’ll keep that in mind.

    Fariah: Maybe just hang out with me, your beloved e-reader, for a few days? I know you’re not really enjoying this book you agreed to review, but you’ve made it halfway. You can finish it later or write up a “DNF because…” That’s not what the author’s hoping for, but you know good and well that it’s better than saying nothing. Particularly as a lot of the disconnect is from you not realizing how grim-dark and gory it would be. Someone out there is hoping for a grim-dark gory polyamorous romantasy… Probably.

    Me: Yeah, I guess.

    Fariah: You have a lot of happier, cozier looking polyamorous romantasies on me already. And didn’t you find that blog the other week..? The one with the SFF Recs with Polyamory list?

    Me: I did. I’ve read a few things on that list and were interested in several others.

    Fariah: Plus, the reviewer’s added several with a polyamory tag since then.

    Blog: And it isn’t like I couldn’t stand some more entries to MY Recommended Reading category.

    Me: Yeah, maybe taking off a few days to read will help. There’s more L Rowyn I haven’t read and her books always make me happy.

    Fariah: Alright, then! You and Me bonding time!

    Melody: And I’ll be here when you feel a little better. Because, like I said, no one else can finish me. <3

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  • A Rational Arrangement, by L Rowyn

    Nikola is a lord in his own right due to his mystic power to heal minds and is heir to his father’s title of Count. But while he can accept gifts for healing, he’s not allowed to bill his clients. That combined with his parents’ abysmal mismanagement of funds means finding a wealthy wife might be a good idea. His family certainly thinks it is. He, however, vehemently disagrees.

    Wisteria wants to marry as much as Nikola doesn’t. She has plenty of money to attract interest, but people find her personality off putting, leaving her still single at twenty-six. Within minutes of meeting Nikola and his parents, she’s offended the family and destroyed any possibility of a match. Or so she thinks.

    Turns out, the very things that Nikola’s parents found repulsive intrigue Nikola. He’s very clear when he returns to speak with Wisteria again that he has no desire to marry. But he enjoys talking to her and wants to learn more about her refreshingly unusual and entirely unfiltered viewpoints.

    One of the reasons Nikola is disinclined towards marriage is named Justin. Justin doesn’t have parents urging him towards anything; they passed away years ago, leaving him the title of Viscount and more money than he knows what to do with. Justin has a long history of shallow sexual relationships, mostly with men. Nikola is different, although Justin’s never bothered to tell him that. And when Justin meets his lover’s unusual new friend, it’s soon clear that she’s different too. Smart, business savvy, passionate, and a woman Justin actually feels physical attraction towards, Wisteria may well be the key to Justin obtaining a life he never dreamed of wanting.

    Read This Book If You…

    1. Believe Regency romances need more polyamory.
    2. Are interested in seeing a strong and sympathetic autistic leading lady who questions her society’s norms at every turn.
    3. Are in favor of positive depictions of bisexual men.
    4. Enjoy romances where lust is present but the leading motivation for the characters to grow closer is them liking each other as people.
    5. Appreciate solid fantasy world building.
    6. Think I could have just told you there are giant, sapient cats all over this culture and sold the book on that merit alone.
    7. Wish to support independent LGBTQ+ fiction.

    Did You Say, “Giant, Sapient Cats?”

    I did!

    Greatcats are the result of a breeding/mind magic program a hundred odd years before our story that took wild big cats and granted them human levels of thought. While most of the greatcats we see work as mounts or security, we also see them being professional athletes, clerks, and healers. They’re a lot of fun to read about, but also well developed as people. Giant cat people.

    Autistic in a World with No Word for Autism

    It was immediately clear to me that Wisteria was somewhere definitively on the autistic spectrum, although the word is never used.

    Early on, her father asks Nikola to cure her and is instantly told there’s nothing about her that needs to be fixed. The notion that her brain could be altered to afford her a more neurotypical experience with life occurs a few times in the story, but Nikola goes from meeting it with a simple ‘nothing’s wrong here’ to seeing where he could make those changes but being horrified at the idea of doing it. Ultimately, her autistic traits end up being a huge part of why both of her love interests fall for her.

    I found the depiction of autism to be respectful, compassionate, and affirming. Although I couldn’t relate to every aspect of Wisteria’s experiences from my area of the spectrum, she resonated as true to life.

    A Rational Approach to Polyamory

    One of the many aspects of her society that Wisteria questions is why she can only marry one person. She’s not the type to accept answers about this being obvious or simply the way things have always been done. It’s not obvious to her, and continuing to do something that doesn’t make sense just because previous generations did the thing doesn’t seem reasonable.

    I won’t spoil how she challenges this over the course of the plot, but the happily ever after conclusion to the novel involves healthy relationships I’m optimistic will endure. Wisteria values clear, honest communication, which is a good foundation for any relationship.

    Content Summaries

    Cozy/Intense Scale: (5 is OMG! INTENSE! And 1 is So Cozy You Can Fall Asleep To It) MOSTLY 2-3. But there is a multi-chapter stretch of 5 that had me incredibly tense.

    Spice Level: (0-5) 4 The sex is on page and graphic, but not too frequent. This is one of the rare books where I would argue at least some of the sex is necessary as it supports the central theme of ‘people should talk about things that are important to them.’

    Representation: The memorable representation in this novel was limited to bisexuality and autism, but I don’t think I’ve ever seen autism presented this well before. There is also an arc about recovering from trauma, although the mental health struggle there is fairly short-lived and the depicted society is one where most of the time mental health issues are solved with magic. 

    Advisories: As already mentioned, the book contains graphic sex scenes. They’re a mixture of gay, straight, and three-participant scenes with nothing I’d label as kinky. The setting is a homophobic society, although none of the characters themselves are homophobic. Nikola’s clients suffer a variety of mental health problems which are depicted in varying degrees of detail. And there is a graphic torture scene that blindsided me. It wasn’t terribly long, but it did disturb me.

    Sold? Find It Here:

    You can actually read the entire novel for free at https://www.rationalarrangement.com/ should you wish. But I encourage you to support the author by purchasing via one of her sales links.

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  • Eighth Month Updates and Trying Not to Cry

    Rather than putting hours of work into my newsletter and having it only be seen by a handful of people and not archieved anywhere, I’m going to start posting most of it here. But to get the super cute animal photos or occassional discount codes and excerpts, you’re going to have to sign up for the full version of Ethernotes. (Just click the envelope!)

    Logo for Ethernotes from Andora Brokaw

    Dear Etherfriends,

    Seventh Month dragged painfully along for me, but we are finally entering Eighth Month! As we do so, The Harmony of Falling Snow has been available in digital form for two months and in print for one.

    I’m stuggling to get reviews though. And it’s hard to sell books without reviews, both because store algorythms bury unreviewed books and because potential readers like to see what other people thought before making purchase decicions. So if you’ve read the book, I’d really appreciate it if you wrote a few sentences about it anywhere you’re willing to do so.

    Publishing Notes

    1. The Harmony of Falling Snow is available in both print and digital forms from a variety of retailers.
      1. Get $2 off epubs at Ko-fi or Itch.io, and $2 off print copies at Ingram-Spark
        1. The discounts reflect the percentage of sales the vendors share with me. I actually still make more per sale at those three places than anywhere else.
        2. If you’re curious, Amazon makes me the least amount of money.
        3. Yes, I have considered selling directly. But that involves a higher monthly cost than would be worth it for my current level of sales.
      2. Or buy it from a variety of other retailers, including Amazon, Barnes and Nobel, and Smashwords.
    2. There’s a lot of disruption and discontent surrounding Itch.io involving overreach from credit card handlers in response to a campaign from a hate group in Australia.
      1. It’s complicated.
      2. I’m still on there for now, but that might change.
    3. I realized two nights ago that Harmony’s metadata didn’t include important categories it should have been listed under, such as Romance > Polyamorous. I’m hoping that having fixed that will increase visibility some.

    Life Notes

    1. My summer depression is still getting worse.
      1. So this is going to be a short newsletter.
      2. But it’s important to note I’ve so far avoided suicidal ideations and have a support network should that change.

    Progress Notes

    A picture by Kate Allan featuring a colorful ferret and the words, "You've been doing a great job considering all you've been up against."

    Image by Kate Allan
    (Check her out if you’re unfamiliar with her. Her art is 100% love.)

    1. I failed every goal I set for myself this month.
      1. And it’s hard to focus on what I DID accomplish. Because depression…
    2. I actually came remarkably close on some of the goals.
      1. 54,751 words written in The Melody of Shining Stars was under the 60k I was aiming at, but would have ‘won’ NaNo WriMo in the day.
        1. I’m more upset that I didn’t finish the draft.
        2. And even more frustrated I don’t have a clear outline for the rest, which makes it really hard to fight the negative voices telling me to just give up writing anything ever again because clearly I’m trash at this and no one cares anyway.
      2. It’s harder to justify being 7 hours under my 100 hr work goal since I’d already lowered that from 120 in light of having house guests.
        1. Although one or two fewer bad days would have made up the extra, so isn’t really all that awful.
    3. My only excuse for not updating the blog more that is overcoming the “What’s the point?” sensation is just too much for when I’m already struggling.
      1. I did write reviews for a cute polyamorous manga and a book about polyamorous fantasty-world seafarers though. They’re here.
    4. And the list didn’t take into account the perfectly predictably burst of depression, so was pretty dang ableist really.

    Planning Notes

    Goals for The Harmony of Falling Snow

    1. Do more promotion?
    2. Figure out how to get reviews.
    3. Don’t fall into a well of dispair over sales or lack thereof.

    Goals for A Melody of Shining Stars

    1. Finish v2.
    2. Start revising.
      1. The draft is at 145k and at LEAST 20k shy of The End. It’s going to need serious cuts.
      2. I actually think I know where a lot of them will be already. So that’s good.

    Goals for the blog

    1. Post at least twice, not including the Highlights from Ethernotes post.
      1. About ANYTHING.
      2. Just POST.

    Goals for Life

    1. Try to keep the depression in check.
    2. Be kind to myself.
    3. Ask for help when I need it.

    In Closing

    I apologize for this month’s letter being more of a downer than usual. I’m trying to keep myself from falling deeper into the pit of depression trying to drown me and hope to be more cheerful next month.

    I love you all and am unspeakably touched by every single person who reads my words.

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  • An Easy Introduction to Love Triangles (To Pass the Exam!) by Canno

    In this short and sweet manga series, middle schooler Mayuki struggles with exams but desperately wants to get into an academically challenging high school to reunite with her long-time secret love, Akira. But things get complicated when the girl Mayuki’s mom hires to tutor her winds up being Akira’s secret love. As feelings begin to develop between Mayuki and her tutor, someone who has never been able to choose just one person to love and who’s lost people she cares about over it, we have a perfect equation for an introductory love triangle!

    Read this book if you…

    1. Enjoy manga.
    2. Like manga that is complete, with a satisfying ending.
    3. Appreciate the idea of a polyamorous yuri.
    4. Can either read Japanese or don’t mind using a free site such as Manga Dex.

    How Does This Book Approach Polyamory?

    At the start of the story, only tutor Rin appears to be aware that it’s even possible to be in love with more than one person. And we meet her as she’s being slapped for not being able to commit to caring for one person more than for everyone else. Poor Rin has gotten to the point where she pretends never to have crushes at all lest it come out that she has them on multiple people at once.

    Since no one talks about this for a while, there’s some of the standard romantic V tropes for a bit, but the series is short enough they never grated on me. In fact, if I were to criticize, the arcs about accepting a triad romance even being a possibility were somewhat rushed. The series is only two volumes and spends most of its time establishing the three individual relationships inside the triad than in establishing the triad itself, per se. That isn’t really a complaint, but it could be part of why so many reviews of the material include people expressing, “It’s cute, but I don’t really get their relationship.” For a polyamorous reader, it makes perfect sense. But for someone who needs more guidance in regards to why/how people can be happy in polyamorous relationships, perhaps a little more clarity on why they all decided to be cool with it was needed.

    It IS Really Cute

    Both the art and the characters are cute, if somewhat standard for manga. We have the ‘poor student’ who studies hard to go from the bottom of her class to the top of it. We have basketball! We have the girl who can’t play sports to save her life. We have a slight age gap, with Rin and Akira being the year ahead of Mayuki. None of that is groundbreaking. But sympathetic and healthy polyamory aren’t things I’ve seen in other manga. (If anyone can point towards more of it, please do!)

    Content Summaries

    Cozy/Intense Scale: (5 is OMG! INTENSE! And 1 is So Cozy You Can Fall Asleep To It) 2-3

    Spice Level: (0-5) 1-2 (heavy, fully illustrated kissing; no sex)

    Representation: This book features polyamorous leads and girls who like girls. (I’m not sure how any of them would actually identify and am aware there’s cultural context I don’t fully understand.) And it’s Japanese. 🙂

    Advisories: Some polyamorous readers may find Rin’s backstory triggering. There is also depression and a suggestion of a possible suicide that doesn’t occur.

    Sold? Find it here!

    I completely failed at locating an English version of this that I could pay for, although a few free sites featuring fan translations have it. I read it on Manga Dex.

    The author does have other material officially available in English, which I will likely get around to purchasing at some point even though I don’t believe any of it is polyamorous.

    SIDENOTE: My character Yuri has no relation to the yuri genre. But he did live on Earth long enough to be aware it shares his name. And to know about Yuri on Ice. He is amused by both of these things.

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