Musings & Such

Andora Brokaw lives at a ski area in Washington state with her partners and an assortment of pets. When not writing, she’s likely to be found with a crochet hook in her hand or skis on her feet.

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  • Let’s Default to Ethcial

    Let’s talk about the concept of ethical nonmonogamy.

    I spend a lot of time thinking about words. When I’m creating a rough draft, the goal is to tell the story as quickly as possible, and consequently I don’t spend too much time on any single word. But prior to publication, every word included in my manuscript will need to justify its existence.

    I’m not one of those people who will demand you never use adverbs to describe an action, and I certainly wouldn’t tell you to avoid adjectives. However, I would likely edit, “Mary slowly drank her brown coffee…” to the snappier, “Mary sipped coffee…” Sipping is a form of drinking always done slowly, most people only drink beverages belonging to them, and it’s reasonable to assume the reader knows what color coffee typically is. (Although I acknowledge that if they’re reading in some post-apocalyptic world following a coffee extinction event destroying society, then this may have been a mistake.)

    I mention all this to give you a context to understand why I see the words “ethical nonmonogamy” and object to the inclusion of “ethical.” What purpose does it serve? And while you’re thinking about that, how often have you seen someone reference unethical nonmonogamy? Not often, right?

    When people feel the need to clarify that the particular case of nonmonogamy under discussion is ethical, they’re feeding the prejudice that this isn’t the default. Personally? I practice nonmonogamy and don’t see any more reason to tack a superfluous “ethical” in there than I would if I were practicing a healthy and mutually agreed upon form of monogamy.

    There are ways to be unethically nonmonogamous, such as any time one party is forcing their will upon other parties like we frequently see in harem romances (see my rant on those if you missed it), but those are the cases we need to be clear about. It’s unethical nonmonogamy that is the rarity, so let’s stop implying it’s the standard. Pretty please?

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  • Meeting Transcript 9/18/2024

    Shadow Kiss, 116000 Words
Rough Draft Completed 09/16/20224

    Shadow Kiss: Wait. You’re not done with me yet! Have you not seen my list of things to change in me?

    Me: I’m aware of the list. You may note that the graphic only claims to have completed the ROUGH DRAFT, not to have completed the novel. Also, if you examine yourself, you’ll see I already started on the Act 1 alterations.

    Act 1: Actually… All you did was rewrite the opening scene. Poorly. What the rot is up with all of this backstory you stuck in there?

    Me: It’s too slow. I realized that even while I was writing it. What I was doing was exploring that history so I can cut all those paragraphs but reference the events in them later.

    Act 1: You wrote it to cut it? That makes zero sense, Andy. But, whatever. You do you, girl.

    Me: It made sense to me. Also, it helped me see that I started in the wrong place. It wasn’t just all the added backstory that’s the problem, but all the rumination. I’ll be rewriting Ch 1, Scene 1 again today. In a way that is not only more active but which lets me cut Ch 1, Scene 2 and replace it with something snappier.

    Act 1: So you’re ripping me to pieces? I thought you were just removing the fourth POV.

    Me: I have two weeks before my beta readers’ deadline. I could in theory completely rewrite you from scratch in that time.

    Shadow Kiss: The other acts have asked me to point out that any significant alterations to Act 1 will impact them. Two weeks is not enough time to rewrite all of me.

    Me: It isn’t. I’m not anticipating any changes THAT big, though.

    Shadow Kiss: Doesn’t mean you won’t make them.

    Me: True. But I’ll decide when I’ve gotten through Act 1 if it’s better to keep going and postpone the next revision of Snow Kiss or to hop over to it. Depending on the feedback from my remaining betas, I could wind up changing something there that could mean I have to rewrite vast swaths of you anyway. If I’m going to do that, I’ll definitely pop back to do it before messing with the rest of you.

    Shadow Kiss: I guess that’s fair. But please get Act 1 redone. I feel itchy knowing changes are coming but not what they are.

    Me: On it!

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  • Meeting Transcript 9/11/2024

    Shadow Kiss: Hey, Andy! I’m still feeling incomplete. Am I imagining that?

    Me: You are, in fact, two chapters away from being done.

    Shadow Kiss: Why are you taking so long?

    Me: I’m actually still on schedule.

    Shadow Kiss: Oh. Why was your schedule so lazy?

    Me: It involves 3-6 hours of work on you a day. 

    Shadow Kiss: Out of 24, Andy. What are you wasting all those other hours on? Sleep?

    Me: I require about ten hours of sleep a day to properly function, so a lot of them are spent sleeping, yes. Also eating, preparing food to be eaten, keeping the house clean enough I don’t break down in tears over how horrible my surroundings are, spending time with family members… Nothing I don’t consider important.

    Shadow Kiss: We have differing definitions of important.

    Me: You recognize I’d be working on you right now if you weren’t trying to shame me for having a life beyond you, right?

    Shadow Kiss: Fine. I’ll be quiet now.

    Me: Thank you.

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  • The Word is Triad

    Confession: I DETEST the word ‘throuple’ with intense passion. The sound of it assaults my soul with all the discordant torture of the sound of… Do we still say nails on a chalkboard? Chalkboards went extinct in US classrooms shortly after I graduated, didn’t they? So at this point something like half the population doesn’t know how awful the sound of something scraping on them is. Wow. Anyway, I hate the word ‘throuple’ and refuse to use it. I’d rather no one use it. I hear it and wince in pain. It is a horrid word in need of banning. Mighty Thor, I implore you to bring down the weight of great Mjölnir upon this terrible word, demolishing it so that the world may be spared from its horrors!

    If you’re about to ask me, “But aren’t you in one?” DON’T. I am in a triad, thank you very much.

    But if you would rather ask, “Andy, wherefore do you so despise this word?” you may may proceed. But I’ll answer even if you don’t. And I’ll admit my first reason is a shallow one. It is simply this: The word is aesthetically displeasing. It brings to mind a bacterial infection rather than a loving relationship. “Looks like throuple. Here, have some antibiotics!” Blech. I am not alone in feeling this way.

    The second reason I want it gone from our language is much more important. ‘Throuple’ is very obviously derived from the words ‘three’ and ‘couple’.

    You may now want to ask, “What’s wrong with that? Is your relationship with your two partners not a three person version of a couple?” And the answer is, “NO, IT ISN’T! It’s its own thing, with its own dynamics. The very idea that a triad is a three person couple is a monoganormative and harmful.”

    I will acknowledge that my triad was born when two people who were already together became involved with a third. That’s actually a pretty common beginning. But the resulting unit was something new. To act as though it was ‘a couple plus one’ is to remove value from the third member to join the group, implying they’re not an equal part of it, not even that important a part when you factor in the degree to which our society overvalues the concept of being part of a couple. (Note: this is something not only protested in nonmonogamy circles but also by people who are perfectly happy being single their entire lives. Whether you’re partnered with six people or zero, all society should care about is whether you feel happy and fulfilled.)

    Additionally, the concept of being a couple has attached baggage stemming from its perceived alignment with societal expectations. Most obviously, there’s an expectation of being shut off from the rest of the world. Yes, polyamorous pairs will possibly identify as a couple despite that connatation, but I still find it problematic. Even when my triad was actually a walled entity rather than the happily expanded piece of a larger polycule that it is now, I never appreciated the idea that I needed to define what we were in a way that would make it more palatable to the mainstream.

    It is possible you can find a group of three people who prefer ‘throuple,’ possibly because they enjoy the monoganormative, limited worldview, trying not to shock mainstream sensibilities aspects of it. They may even insist you to apply the word to them. Don’t do it. Those people are wrong and should be prohibited from having opinions. (That’s a joke. Please refer to people in the way you have been asked to refer to them regardless of what anyone on the internet says about it.)

    I will end my rant with one simple request. Please refer to my partners and me as a triad. Thank you and have a nice day.

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  • What did NanoWrimo Do Now?

    There are a number of reasons you might not know why everyone in creative writing circles is talking about NanoWrimo this week. Maybe, like me, you gave up caring about NanoWrimo during previous scandals. Perhaps you put off looking at anything about the challenge until at least October. Or perhaps you don’t know many writers. Both the Washington Post and the New York Times have weighed in on the current controversy, but maybe you’ve made the choice to ignore news outlets for your mental health, or only watch comedy pieces about former president and current felon Donald Trump’s inability to string coherent sentences together.

    Speaking of an inability to string a sentence together… And speaking of NanoWrimo… Let’s add those two concepts together! The folks over at the NanoWrimo head office made an official statement last weekend that was interpreted as defending people who want to pretend they’re writing books but are actually just feeding a computer prompts, appearing to say that it is no longer necessary to actually bother with the annoyance of writing during National Novel WRITING Month as you can just have an AI do it for you and still claim credit! Yay!

    From a more recent statement attempting to provide clarification, they’ve explained they were trying to shut down what they viewed as harassment of people who admitted to using AI in their forums. (Note: Toxicity in the NanoWrimo forums is nothing new, and attempts at doing something about it have a history of not going well.) 

    But it wasn’t just the appearance of condoning pretending to win by making an AI spit out nonsense for you that upset people. No, NanoWrimo appeared to accuse arguments against claiming credit for what the AI spat out as both ableist and classist. Here’s the quote for that:

    We also want to be clear in our belief that the categorical condemnation of Artificial Intelligence has classist and ableist undertones, and that questions around the use of AI tie to questions around privilege.

    Many people have written articulate and scathing condemnations of appropriating language used to address real and great injustices to try to shame people who think writers need to actually write their own books. In their new statement, NanoWrimo admits to poor wording. 

    We apologize that our original message was unclear and seemingly random. Our note on ableism and classism was rooted in the desire to point out that, for people in certain circumstances, some forms of AI can be life-changing. We certainly don’t believe those with concerns about AI to be classist or ableist. Not being more careful about our wording was a bad decision on our part.

    I had to go to the Wayback Machine to see the original post, but here is their logic on those allegations. (Read the whole thing if you’d like.) Here’s a quick breakdown and some quick responses.

    Classism. Not all writers have the financial ability to hire humans to help at certain phases of their writing. For some writers, the decision to use AI is a practical, not an ideological, one. The financial ability to engage a human for feedback and review assumes a level of privilege that not all community members possess.

    This appears to me to condone the use of AI in editing. And, really, you’d have to explain to me what the difference between doing that and utilizing a word processor’s spell and grammar check is. I think MOST writers use at least spell check. I don’t feel it’s particularly controversial. Obviously, having a human who has studied grammar go through your manuscript is likely to be worthwhile for those who can pay one, but maybe computer tools are enough for a writer who can look at the feedback and know when it’s right, when it’s wrong, and when it’s somewhere in between. Regardless, while this is inarguably part of the publishing process, I don’t view it as part of writing itself.

    Ableism. Not all brains have same abilities and not all writers function at the same level of education or proficiency in the language in which they are writing. Some brains and ability levels require outside help or accommodations to achieve certain goals. The notion that all writers “should“ be able to perform certain functions independently or is a position that we disagree with wholeheartedly. There is a wealth of reasons why individuals can’t “see” the issues in their writing without help.

    The last line returns us to editing. The bit about writers being able to perform certain functions is vague, but where a lot of the pushback is stemming from. I don’t think it’s particularly ableist to maintain that a novelist needs to be able to tell a story in their own words. That’s what writing a novel is. Is it ableist to say a runner must be able to run to claim that title? Many people can’t run, and that’s okay. They should be allowed to do other things. Walk. Ride a bus. Use a wheelchair. Whatever gets them to where they want to go. But they probably wouldn’t call those things running or try to identify as a runner, and I think the running community would be justified in asking them not to.

    Personally, my aphantasia does sometimes lead to muddling through descriptions as I can’t visualize what I’m describing. Most of the time, it’s actually not a problem. When I am stuck from this, I run image searches to find illustrations that are close to what I want and, viola, I can now see what I’m describing with only a few details off! At this point, I’ll acknowledge a lot of what I’m finding is AI generated. I feel it’s crucial to point out, though, that I will find a drawing someone did and describe it in my own words. I might at some point be willing to ask an AI for a picture of a specific thing I’m not finding a basis for. What I would never, ever do is tell an AI, “Write a paragraph describing an attractive Elven bookstore owner,” then cut-and-paste the results into my manuscript and pretend I’d written that because I thought up the idea that there’s a bookshop in my setting and someone attractive owns it.

    General Access Issues. All of these considerations exist within a larger system in which writers don’t always have equal access to resources along the chain. For example, underrepresented minorities are less likely to be offered traditional publishing contracts, which places some, by default, into the indie author space, which inequitably creates upfront cost burdens that authors who do not suffer from systemic discrimination may have to incur. 

    Eh? Isn’t this the same argument as the first one, but with additional notes of racism?

    Overall, I’m struck that NanoWrimo’s AI defenses revolved around publication, not writing. And while maybe that is most writers’ end goal, it’s well outside the challenge of writing a novel-length rough draft in a month. Yet, nothing they’ve said since has clarified that they didn’t mean you can claim credit for a computer’s output as though you’d written it and be declared a winner via that method, and that certainly feels like it’s because the people criticizing them over that stance aren’t interpreting what they really meant incorrectly.

    As for me, I wasn’t intending on participating in NanoWrimo this year as I haven’t been part of it for many years. Later, I’ll get into my experiences when I did participate, what I do now, and what alternatives people may want to consider if they’re done with the organization but still need a group challenge for motivation.

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